The theme I have been meditating on is “Who am I?”. Simple question but perhaps the most difficult one too.
I always had a hard time introducing me myself, I feel like walking on a line between pretentiousness and boring normality… But what does come to mind when I try to define who I am and I’m the listener?
First, it’s usually what I do and what I am to others. I’m a application developer, a husband, a son, a nice guy, a good friend, etc… What I am not too… But this is just superficial. It’s perhaps a good idea to put this on a CV or on an about page but that is not really who I am. All these things are just definitions but we are made of actions more than of definitions.
Who am I when I meditate? How am I linked to the world? A bag of water pressured down a mat towards the ground?
What is me in now?
What am I doing today? Do I act? Do I observe?
Do I create new links with the world around me? And what are the qualities of these links? Emotional, practical, physical?
Am I insignificant? or do I have the power to change the world? Maybe both?
In fact, in this case, questions are better than answers. Words, thoughts, nothing can really define who we are. Our definitions surpass all that but we can feel it. We know who we are.
It’s almost like reaching the answer without being able to touch it.
I believe that is the point.
Did you ever try to honestly meditate about who you are?